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So now you know. Satan deceives. That was an actual license plate on a car I was behind the other day. There are really a lot of gospel messages on plates around here. I can’t decide if I like it or am creeped out by it.

The ward temple trip was Friday. We had a really great turnout. Our goal is always 50, and this time we had 48. 26 of us went out to dinner afterward. I really missed Jared, but it was good. Heidi was there without Tim, so we were each others’ dates.

I was struck in the temple by how important it is to keep our thoughts clean. I think sometimes I feel I don’t have to watch or control my thoughts as much as I have to control my words or actions. After all, they’re inside me. No one else knows….. But as I was going through the endowment ceremony, I thought about how interesting it is that we just have to think the words of our covenants for them to be binding. Whoa. Just THINK them. It would sound lunatic, I guess, to someone who didn’t understand our emphasis on overcoming the Self. “For our words will condemn us, yea, all our works will condemn us; we shall not be found spotless; and our thoughts will also condemn us; and in this awful state we shall not dare to look up to our God; and we would fain be glad if we could command the rocks and the mountains to fall upon us to hide us from his presence.” (Alma 12:14) It’s something I can work on.

I have been doing better about not yelling at the kids so much lately. I’m sure that will mean I’ll have some explosion here in the next few days. Arg. I am trying hard though, and I am thinking about it every day. I pray I can overcome that part of my Self.

Our presidency meeting got a little too gossipy in tone on Monday. I talked to Lynlee about it today, and she had similar feelings. Not a good thing. I expressed concern about having so many of my girlfriends in the presidency, and here is one example of friendship interfering with the work. We got too chatty, and the tone took an inappropriate turn. We can fix it tho. The women I work with are wonderful, and I know we can nip this.

DD made me laugh this morning. Well, I put on my stern face outside, but I was laughing inside. She recorded herself practicing her songs for piano, and then played it over and over so we would think she was practicing! Made me laugh. The bad part is, it totally worked, too. The only reason I found out is DS tattled on her.

I am so sappy for Jared it is pathetic. Normally I’m okay when he’s gone, but I’m bad off this time. I bought some chocolate. Maybe it will suffice….. :(